the last edition of the maternity series. my heart is heavy and sad. what an incredible journey and process this has been…

when i look back at this pregnancy i went through every emotion possible. depression that i was so sick and couldnt be the mother or wife that i wanted to be. and total and complete happiness that i was pregnant after a miscarriage. and unsure about how i felt about my growing body- frustrated and uncomfortable, but in complete awe that there was a growing baby under my skin. and the confidence and connection this series gave me to Pierson… it’s unimaginable. it forced me to shower at least once a week and pose in front of a camera… something i am NOT comfortable doing. i would much rather be on the other side of the lens. and the letters…. i didnt even know if it was a boy or a girl, but i felt so connected to this little life even before we had ever met. and finally, my dad’s death, and almost immediately the birth. what a complete circle…

i am so so happy that i have this record of what the past couple months have brought.

i love you my little baby boy.